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Chapter 12
After Krista accidentally discovered that album, Frankle couldn’t sleep all night.
All night long, his mind replayed the events that had happened over the years.
If in the first decade or so, he was chasing Rosa, then in the three years after she got married, he learned to let go of her
From the moment she got married, he decided to only treat her as a sister in the future.
And for Krista, who had been pursuing him all along, Frankie initially only saw her as a friend.
Perhaps it was the pain of unrequited love that made him always feel guilty toward her.
This quilt also lingered for many years until the two people reunited three years ago.
At the first sight of goodbye, he knew that she had not let go of him yet.
So for a long period of time after being pressured to get married, he kept thinking about the same thing over and over again.
Is it about listening to parents and being with unfamiliar blind date partners?
Should I still accept Krista and give her a chance?
Finally, he thought that if he married her, at least she wouldn’t be as miserable as he was
Young Frankie believed that fulfilling her wish would dissolve the despair of unattainability.
But at that time, he still didn’t know that sometimes, an outcome that is not desired is even harder to accept than not getting what one wants.
And fulfilling It is not an easy task either.
One side was the abyss of pain that had already been lost, while the other side was the marriage fortress that was about to be entered.
He shuttled back and forth between the two parties, feeling as if he was about to be torn in half
In a state of near collapse, he proposed the idea of a secret marriage, and Krista agreed without hesitation
Frankie got married in a state of confusion, not knowing how to forget someone and how to navigate a marriage.
Three years after their marriage, he had very little contact with Rosa, only seeing her occasionally at social gatherings.
He put all those group photos he took with many people into that photo album.
In daily life, he learned to slowly let go of that obsession
Letting go is not an easy thing to do.
Years of habit made it so that his gaze would always unconsciously fixate on her, and his emotions would uncontrollably fuctuate because of her.
Especially after learning about her divorce, he earnestly hoped that she could break free from her misery and start a new life, which is why he made such dedicated efforts to help her.
The person who was once truly loved, even if they clearly knew that there was no possibility of being together, would still hope for her future to be smooth.
But all of this was just Frankie’s thoughts in his mind, he had never mentioned it to anyone.
It is said that unrequited love is a person’s secret. He thought he was hiding it well, but he forgot that Krista also had a crush on him, so she could easily see through his thoughts.
He only realized that he had already shown his true colors after losing
He only realized that he had already shown his true colors after losing.
When the truth was revealed, his anger was not only because he had been deceived into getting divorced.
He sentenced her without even asking her a single question, he left so abruptly without saying a word, he didn’t even give her a chance to explain.
He was also angry at himself for not discovering the abnormality earlier, angry at himself for habitually ignoring her, and angry at himself for not taking on his husband’s blame.
I regret not realizing Krista’s place in his heart earlier.
For over three years, they had spent countless days and nights together, and he had long been accustomed to her presence by his side.
Even though Rosa got divorced, he never had the thought of getting divorced.
Because from the day he received the marriage certificate, he had made up his mind about one thing.